我真的好累……

（这是一个过渡期的post，不要担心，会过去的。）




我真的好累 你要的我都学不会
为你伤悲为你憔悴
你让我喝却不让我醉
我真的好累 却为你付出了一切
为你狂野为你沉醉
做一个爱情的傀儡




不过，我不是爱情傀儡，我是生活的傀儡。


生活中大家最求着什么？
生活中大家找寻着什么？
真的有点累了，应该是因为在这之前的生活都过得太简易，太轻松，现在才会一直为赋新词强说愁。


功课虽然是很多，但是也没有到每天做都做不完的程度。也足以让我这个荒废类11年学业的人窒息。
考试虽然难，但是也没有难到读了还是不会做的程度。只是看到底花了多少时间去读。




我觉得学校的system很奇怪，明明就还没有教，就已经要做相关的功课，做了讨论又没有好好解释。叫学生出来解释，不会解释就代表抄人家的功课，就要扣分。解释了别人不明白就叫下一个出来解释，再看有没有人明白。如果全部明白了又在叫别人来解释，不会解释又再扣分。唉……


有blog很好，因为每每没有人倾诉就来这里跟全世界倾诉。我讲什么想什么都不用面对别人当面的表情，最多就是回回comment。长大了才发现原来生活真的是一连串的问题，而生活这个游戏的宗旨就是解决问题，或者逃避问题。只是问题是永远解决不完的，而逃避问题只会造就更多的问题，再延续，再延续，无止尽。


当很多烦恼堆积在一起的时候，其他很多琐碎的小事也会一起变成烦恼，让人烦上加烦。所有什么平心静气，冷静思考全部是假的。人在这个时候特别烦躁，就像颗地雷，一触即发。


有blog很好，但是有一个人在身边更好，更实在。只不过，blog如果不想写可以不要写，不需要向任何人交代。


我真的好累，很想有个拥抱，很想真正真正的休息一下。


晚安，全世界。

Finally...

Finally...finally...after so long, i'm back to blogger and continue my crapping.

It's already more than half way through holiday Oh My Gosh ~! Time past so fast when you are in holiday.
Wasnt really paying attention to what's happening on the net this few days...Facebook, MSN, and stuff. So, there's some message or mail that didint respond immediately and i'm sorry about it. Sorry everyone who wanted to inform me something. Hmm...got lots of things done this holiday, but not that many of them has got to do with my studies -.="

I've been saying i want to go for movies like 2-3 weeks before holiday but yet even up until now i didnt even went for 1 movie while there are so many highly-recommended-movies recently. I really really want to watch movie lar ! From Karate Kid, then Twilight Eclipse, then Despicable Me, then Inception, then Shanghai, and coming soon Salt, coming soon The Last Air Bender and the list goes on forever. I wanna watch movies lar ! But i have had no time no money no companion, so, forget it.







Ahhhhh ! Movie !!!



I'm so freaking satisfied with myself for getting my laptop fixed. Stupid Windows 7 disk defragmenter i dont think is working, cause i run it from time to time but yet when i checked with TuneUp Disk Defrag my disk fragment is up to 90++ %. The fragments slowed down my disk drastically thus lower my laptop performance i think, and because the heavy workload the system keeps on rebooting. And after trying countless time to defrag using TuneUp it still reboots half way until i bring the laptop to a small aircon room and point a fan towards it. Things are much much more after that...things get even better after i format my system to Windows 7 Professional. Yet i think there's still dust accumulating on my system fan but i really really dont want the hassle to send it back to HP and stuff and stuff, so , for now, i'll keep the laptop with me. Okay, Laptop problem, solved.


Time flies ! Gonna get back to Melacca and KL for training on Friday. Training provided by Canon Marketing for the August PC fair at KLCC. So, anyone intended to buy Printer can wait until August PIKOM PC Fair and buy from me. or bank in money to me before that and ask me to buy for you.
PIKOM PC Fair Kuala Lumpur
6th, 7th, 8th August 2010
KL Convention Centre


Today had a great yumcha + chitchatting session with Wy. Talk a hell lot and hmm...everybody has got their own life. Hahaha... It's been like...so loooooooooooooooooooooooooong since i last talked freely and without stress with some others. Okay, well, actually not that long. Haha Anyway it's been nice to have old friend like this to share what's going on in each others life. *winks*



Oh My God. Not forgetting the Mid-Term for Digital System on 4th August. Gonna revise for it ! And what ?  Database System Mid-Term coming soon too ? OMG. Life's back to normal soon. I dont want it ! But cant help. But it seems some people cant stand the boredom of holiday and went back to campus earlier, but i'm definitely not one of them. I dont want the new trimester to start ! I dont want ! *crying all the way*
But i guess that's life, and it moves on.

Very busy recently, no time to update blog...so...so be it.

The Original Meaning of Wavin Flag (World Cup 2010 Theme Song)

World Cup 2010 ended with the fantastic show that Netherlands and Spain had put up. Yet the theme song "Wavin Flag" is still ringing around us. But, all we heard is the FIFA version of Wavin Flag. There is actually more story behind the original wavin flag.
The version we are all listening now are actually a version that is edited for Coca Cola as their promotional anthem for FIFA World Cup 2010, and they've changed a damn lot about it. Here's the Coke version aka FIFA 2010 version:

Give me freedom, give me fire, give me reason, take me higher
See the champions, take the field now, unify us, make us feel proud
In the streets our head are liftin’, as we lose our inhibition,
Celebration it surrounds us, every nations, all around us

Singin forever young, singin songs underneath that sun
Lets rejoice in the beautifull game.
And together at the end of the day.

WE ALL SAY

When I get older I will be stronger

They’ll call me freedom Just like a wavin’ flag

…

Give you freedom, give you fire, give you reason, take you higher
See the champions, take the field now, unify us, make us feel proud
In the streets our head are liftin’, as we lose our inhibition,
Celebration, it surrounds us, every nation, all around us

Singin’ forever young, singin’ songs underneath that sun
Lets rejoice in the beautifull game.
And together at the end of the day.

WE ALL SAY

When I get older, I will be stronger
They’ll call me freedom
Just like a wavin’ flag

The original song actually deeply expressed the deepest, strongest desire towards peace, freedom, hope, waiting the day peace bestowed, freedom gained, with full of hope, the hope African have for not only their country, but the whole continent. Please, listen to the original song. The content is ugly and yet the message is so strong, that's what makes this meaningful and worthy.


There are some mistakes in the lyrics though, but its not done by me =)


When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom, just like a wavin' flag


When I get older, I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, oh


Born to a throne, stronger than Rome
A violent prone, poor people zone
But it's my home, all I have known
Where I got grown, streets we would roam


Out of the darkness, I came the farthest
Among the hardest survival
Learn from these streets, it can be bleak
Accept no defeat, surrender, retreat


So we struggling, fighting to eat
And we wondering when we'll be free
So we patiently wait for that fateful day
It's not far away, but for now we say


When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, oh


So many wars, settling scores
Bringing us promises, leaving us poor
I heard them say 'love is the way'
'Love is the answer,' that's what they say


But look how they treat us, make us believers
We fight their battles, then they deceive us
Try to control us, they couldn't hold us
'Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers


But we struggling, fighting to eat
And we wondering, when we'll be free
So we patiently wait for that faithful day
It's not far away but for now we say


When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, and then is goes


When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, and then it goes
And then it goes


And everybody will be singing it
And you and I will be singing it
And we all will be singing it


When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, and then it goes


When I get older I will be stronger
They'll call me freedom just like a wavin' flag
And then it goes back, and then it goes back
And then it goes back, oh


When I get older, when I get older
I will be stronger just like a wavin' flag
Just like a wavin' flag, just like a wavin' flag
Flag, flag, just like a wavin' flag


How ironic, how contrast !

给一位朋友的话

对不起

认识你这样久

我不曾放慢过脚步

我不曾关心

我不曾去了解你经历的一切

我不曾给予关怀

我不曾给予安慰

我不曾在你需要的时候出现

我不曾帮得上什么忙

我不曾了解你

有一天漫不经心地散步

看过你留下的足迹

才发现你的经历多么坎坷

才发现你承受了多大的压力

才发现原来自己不了解你

才发现没有真正的关心过你

才发现你是多么的坚强

你是多么的坚强

很想要说什么 很想要做什么

但是知道什么都不说更好

做也做不了什么

那份关怀

那份关心

那些安慰的话

我藏在心中

你会知道的

接下来的路 还有很长

要坚强

要加油

Class and works that's suffocating me !

"So which one do you think is the answer ? A or B ? "
"Miss, cannot C ? "
"Ya, cannot C, only can choose from A and B. No C D E F G."
"Miss, it's cannot SEE."
"Oh ! Cannot See ! Oh ! Okay."


LOL. Best part of Digital System class today. 
Eventhough it's funny but seriously i nearly suffocated from the last part of the lecture. The lecturer was like rushing to finish the subtopic which she already warned that it wont be easy on the beginning of that topic. I seriously paid attention on the front part and understood most of it, but the last part really caught my breathe.  I cant understand a single thing and she's speeding like Bullet Train. I think at that time 95% of the class wasnt able to catch up. New things keep coming in before i even digested the precious previous part. And she hasnt noticed that and keep on speeding, if i were traffic police i would really saman her for speeding in class -.="
Personally i believe teaching isnt just delivering lecture and finishing the syllabus in time, but to deliver correct information in a systematic way so that student can more easily understand and digest what was delivered. 


And Oh My God ! Why does work come faster than it goes ? Before i manage to finish the previous work there's another new set of work given. Pffft ~ 
If only money can come in the same manner also, comes before i finishes those previously given. 
If only i can do work as fast as spending money.
If only those works are as easy as spending money.


Well, i think that's university.

Muet Result and random crap.

Hmm, just check my MUET result. Band 4, while minimum is requirement is Band 3. Hurm...okay la i think, not that bad. 
I know myself quite well, i know what is my English level, so i accepted my Band 4 with no complaints. But looking at my blogpost...gosh, i really really need to brush up brush up my English writing. My friend was right, everyone have their expectations, sometimes others' result seems okay but we just wont understand why they are so upset about it. But anyway, cheer up people. We're all still building the highway,  our journey of life wont be smooth and without tripping stone. Take it easy and proceed !


Great. 
Week 5 now and i am still blurry blurry about studies. Oh My God ! How am i gonna do well in exam ? I dont want i dont want and i dont want to continue like i used to be !!! Hmm. I am determined this time (again ? LOL !) that i shall study real hard. *Persevere*
Hopefully  i can make it for my CP assignment, hope it lift my marks a little bit. Maths is the most OMG subject ever. No-eye-see ing. I should make myself able to manage Maths !!!! but then...Hmm, i will pull through. And i am still so BLUR about Database System. Luckily SQL grab a bit of my attention and i hate drawing ERDs !!! Oh my god ! Tutorial 5 due Friday !!!
I'm lucky enough to have good groupmate in Digital System, Diego from Indonesia. Wooohoo !  Real pro. Helps me a lot, should be okay. And Technopreneur Venture -.=" , the most OMG lecturer(She'll grow with us, i think so). Hopefully i can manage by myself and hopefully courseworks helps. 
Hurmm...I believe knowing the weakness is the first step to improve (that was crap) and i really should believe in myself. 
I can do it ! 


LOL. Seriously it's yet another crap post, but i cant help crapping. Somebody stop me !

To ALL IVSC Working Comm that CONTRIBUTED:

Thank you guys !
Your hard work is sincerely appreciated. Thank you once again for contributing and sacrificing to make the event a success.
 Pls wait patiently while the whole thing is settles then you will be updated again about your certs and SAPS and what you get from the event. Pls be reminded you join the event is to get a different experience from your normal uni life and the fellowship in organizing the event but not for something that's materialize.
And regarding the recording we have during Final night, the rights is reserved to Mobi Music, so all the recordings and video is not distributable. Please understand. Thank you.
Can still feel free to contact me for anything else.
Cheers and all the best in life.

耐心等待，仔细寻找，感觉很重要 ？

戴爱玲的《对的人》自从超级星光大道后变成了一首脍炙人口的歌，其中的歌词《爱要耐心等待，仔细寻找，感觉很重要》更是让很多人觉得很有道理，让很多人有所共鸣。

爱要耐心等待，仔细寻找，感觉很重要

之前也一直觉得歌词的意思很对，很能引起共鸣。只是过后又觉得是不是真的“感觉”很重要？开始否认感觉是重要的、因为我认为两个人合不合得来比起彼此的感觉来的更加重要。

到今天我才偶然的从和朋友的对话中发现，原来不是感觉不重要，它只是其次的重要。两个人在一起，适不适合，频率是不是一样， 是不是一样世界的人固然很重要，但是彼此之间的感觉更也是要点。

一对男女，尽管在合拍，再谈得来，关系在密切，但是彼此之间少了那一朵火花也不可能会在一起。相反地，偶然的机缘下有了那束火花而在一起，彼此不合拍，不适合，隔阂越来越大的时候，感情终究会画上句号。

人与人之间的相处本来就已经不容易，要找到可以跟你合拍，谈得来的人本来就很难。再要找一个谈得来，彼此之间又有火花的另一半，更是难上加难。这一切，谈何容易啊 ？

所以《耐心等待，仔细寻找》其实是用来衬托那一句《感觉很重要》的。的确，要遇上那个谈得来兼有感觉的另一半，真的是要耐心地去等待，仔细地去寻找。

我不是一个很喜欢谈关于爱情的人，只是今天感性起来有感而发。

我不是一个喜欢谈关于爱情的一切的人，因为我不是一个会在爱情里面兜圈子的人，也不是一个会沉沦在过去或者有可能的未来的人。

You know Nuffnang ?

Okay, most important thing of this post you should know is that I AM NOT ADVERTISING for Nuffnang. I just want to share the story.

Okay, the thing is, Nuffnang is Asia Pacific's First Blog Advertising Community, kinda like Google AdSense where advertiser pay them to advertise and they pay Blogger to publish the advertisers' ads. Nuffnang was founded in Feb 2007 by two ordinary university students, Timothy Tiah and Cheo Ming Shen. They had ambition and had a plan. Within the first 3 days of the launching of Nuffnang.com.my, they got 300 bloggers signed up for it and Nuffnang.com.sg was launched 2 months later. In Year 2009, there are a total of 118,817 bloggers from Singapore, Malaysia, Philippines and Australia associated with Nuffnang.

The main theme in this post, is the passion and the ambition and the dream. You have a dream, you have a target, you work hard, and you realise the dream. How many people can do that ? Of course there are many example of those who succeeded but how many percent are there? It is very hard to find a balancing point between dream and reality. We are all under the mercy of reality. (Oh shit, i start crapping again, stop me !)

Anyhow, i was meant to encourage people(and myself), that we should work hard towards our dream, our goal. It's all about passion and hardwork. Do you have what it takes ? Do you want to be the minority that are successful ? Well...Good Luck to you.

LOL ~! The Enclosed. What a name ! LMAO. The name was used years and years before when i was still a kid. That particular blog was deleted but the name remains.

Why did i start blogging again ? Tsk tsk ~

• So that i wont deprove that much in my language, be it English or Chinese ( Does blogging help actually ?)
• So that i can have a place to share my feeling ? (what happen to facebook ?)
• So that i can crap about here ? (true, but i can crap about everywhere)
• So that i can have something to do when i dont feel like doing things i was supposed to do.
• So that i can make a little money with adsense ? ( please, just a few cents)
• I must have been crazy.

Why is this text editor of Blogger have to limited functions ? Urgh ~

Posts in here is kinda SS...is this how blogger blogs ? Like nobody's business ? Ooops ~

I think thats it. I really should stop being SS now.

Do check out my blog for more posts ! Well, maybe.